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Photos of Central Washington- wildflowers, mountains, and some of my friends and family. I think that God exists and that the Devil and God are one and the same. There is only one creator of everything and you can call it whatever. I must have been a friend of the devil then, to still love flowers and mountains and deserts and puppies and my friends and family. For all of them were also created by the same entity that created strip mines and pedophiles. Music by the Grateful Dead, Capitol ...

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My personal experience being a "schizophrenic" and a warning for any other schizophrenics out there. And it all started off with Genesis..... Don't waste your life in delusions. I also think there are a lot of scientists out there who are wasting their lives unfortunately too on something that just isn't true and never will be.

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If I was checking people's homework, I would say that organized religion's paper would be full of red check marks. Epic fail. But I ain't the teacher anyways.

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This is a video I did when I was 17 years old- almost 20 years ago now! Hard to believe, I know, but I never was "normal"- especially being a punk rock chick skateboarder back in the day in small town nowhere. At the end of this video is a look at my room when I was 17. The snowboard is a Burton twintip, old for even 1990- that is why I said it is the rock board- the board to bust out with if you don't care about getting it gouged by rocks. It eventually met its demise in a burning sacrifice ...

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I lived in Leavenworth, Washington for 13 years- it is called the Bavarian Village and it is a German-themed tourist town. I worked in downtown with all the tourists but always told myself I would never wear a dirndl- the standard traditional Bavarian dress- that most shopkeepers and waitresses wear. But here I am in a dirndl. I figured it was for a good cause- the possibility of winning a new longboard! Even in a town where dirndl wearing women are common I still turned a few heads. Check ...

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Thought does not arise on its own. We do not create it, but we are subjected to it. Much like the weather you can forecast it, you have to live through it the best you can, but you can't necessarily change it. This was filmed on Badger Mountain in Washington State, which was recently in the news for having a windstorm which produced dust-bowl like conditions. In the background is wheat, but when the windstorm came through none of the crops had been planted because of a lack of rain....

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It was the greatest story ever told, but was it the greatest life ever lived? Shouldn't living life be more important than a good story? You could also be a can of Campbell's Soup on someone's wall. Isn't it ironic that creator of such a masterpiece of ordinary life would be killed by such an individual? But, that's God's art. And yes, Japanese horror films are still considered art.

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Sonny is a wild and crazy guy. Especially after water. I adopted Sonny in August- such is the month for great fun! He's a year old, but spent 8 months in a goat pen without human interaction fending off goats for his food. After that Sonny was rescued by a nice man, and spent the next couple months learning about real life, other dogs, and people (and bathrooms, and cars, and whatever else). And after that Sonny came to live with me. Since Sonny was adopted by me we have been doing all sorts ...

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Every superhero needs a sidekick. Batman had Robin, The Green Hornet had Kato (played by Bruce Lee) and Spiderman at least had his Aunt. My favorite comic book growing up was Groo The Wanderer written by Sergio Aragonés. Groo was actually totally incompetent, but his dog Rufferto was really smart and always saved the day. My previous dog was a blue heeler, German shephard, Australian shephard mix named Stella. Stella can be seen on some of my earlier videos. She recently passed away, and in ...

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Part of an interview that I did for a documentary about mental illness. My views on a number of different subjects including war and peace, madness, sex and God.

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